Not every human who goes through a Near Death Experience (NDE) shares details of their transformative connection to spirit, but many people do. A multitude of accounts exist of those rare folks who “live again” after venturing into a different reality, and by our conventional understanding, have died. Unquestionably, there is a personal nature with individualize aspects to each NDE. Still, researchers have been able to effectively question experiencers about these unique events and statistically discern definable qualities associated with almost all NDEs.
Publishing their data has led to many academic generalizations about the nature of the NDE process while also providing a set of identifiers, a protocol, useful for categorizing information from a diversity of NDEs. Thanks to the dogged research by devoted professionals, knowledge gleamed from many years of anecdotal accounts has blessed humanity. The mainstream acknowledgement of the phenomenon has led to an understanding and, for many, validation of the non-physical “reality” of the afterlife. Finally, we can clearly declare in an NDE that there’s something significant going on and well worth more than just casual consideration. The International Association for Near Death Studies, Inc (IANDS) and its regional organizations are one of the many valuable online and in person resources of information available on this subject. Please seek them out.
It was in February or March of 1990 that I experienced what I now know as an NDE (astrologically, the event corresponded close to an almost exact alignment with my first Saturn return at 25º Capricorn, a MAJOR synchronicity I didn’t discover until almost 25 years later). At the time, I was living alone in Portsmouth, Virginia and was deeply engaged in my work as a professional civilian nuclear engineer for the US Navy with the DOD (Department of Defense). The demands of the job tacitly forced me into routine overtime work. Many weekdays, I found myself waking up before 5AM and not getting home again until after 7PM. One evening, following a particularly challenging day of overtime work, I made it home, closed the door, and felt so tired I immediately thought, I must take a nap before doing anything else. Stretching out on my comfy couch, almost immediately I fell into a deep asleep. What happened that evening during my sleeping state was nothing less than fantastic. I had no inkling of what was to transpire.
Asleep, I looked up slightly above and ahead of me at a bright white light that was opening up, like a porthole on a ship widening. There was a figure silhouetted in the light, partially blocking it, who was looking at and moving toward me. This entire scene occurring before me represented no parallel to anything I could recall having experienced before in a dream. All the while, there was no fear or concern for my safety and I had no instinctive negative emotional reaction to the unfolding events. Intellectually, my limited understanding of the events that took place while I napped could only be categorized by me at the time as a “dream”. Later, iI realized this was an NDE.
Oddly, I realized that I was consciously aware of this situation. In the dream, it was much like I remained in a waking conscious state with my thoughts present and vivid to me. Physically, my eyes were closed and I was asleep, but I was “awake” and aware in the dream space experiencing the events. Today we might call this an out-of-body or lucid dreaming experience, although at the time, I would have had almost no idea of what those terms or concepts were entirely about.
As the figure moved closer to me, I perceived something like a rail on a ship, sort of a barrier or divider, between me and this “person” I was seeing. Behind them I saw something that seemed like movement down a hallway, walking perpendicular left and right, but the background figures were completely indiscernible. It was not possible for me to make out who was passing by in that blown out white light. The figure, who had stepped out of this traffic in the background, neared me and suddenly I realized who it was; my father.
Dad had passed from this world very unexpectedly about a year before on February 11, 1989 at the age of 70 (his death occurring very close to a transiting Saturn crossing my natal ascendant, another significant astrological pattern). The news of his loss, so carelessly conveyed to me by my mother, still echoed in my memory. Dad and I were never close, but we still seemed to share a certain psychic link which would manifest unexpectedly in our lives. Maybe he wasn’t aware of this as he never said anything about it, but I recognized the significance of our collective psychic experiences whenever they happened. Now, appearing to me in this NDE, Dad was fully psychically linked to me and communicated telepathically. No words were ever spoken between us in this NDE, which I now see was perhaps mimicking our father-son life experience.
What did he say? Sadly, I don’t recall it clearly, but I do know that our communication was extensive, it continued for a while. As he stood there silently, his thoughts continued to download into my consciousness, the interaction remaining much like a rapid, passing conversation you can’t recall. Then, dad began taking slow, small steps back from the rail that kept him separated from me, and he began to fade from my vision. In his transition, I felt movement, like being swept away in a current, yet I knew that physical analogy was not really accurate because it was a far subtler and gentle experience. I was dissolving away, my physical being was beginning to spread out, my form was dissipating from the pattern I had known in 3D life. There was absolutely no pain in this process. It felt warm and wonderful.
Gradually, I could sense myself expanding outwardly, all my molecules, atoms, every quantum particle that made up my physical being, was diffusing into the universe. My understanding of time became compressed (or expanded) and the past, present and future I had understood existed all merged into the same thing. I looked into what I knew had been a linear life experience, moving always from A, to B, to C, etc., only to observe it melting into a single awareness of time seen more broadly. It became readily apparent my conscious human perspective was exceptionally limited. Actually, there was really no time at all, or at least I could not apply ANY of my 3D concepts of what time was to my NDE. What was happening?
In this transformation process, there was no anxiety or worrying vibrations. Peace, contentment, and oneness of self were replacing what I had known in my physical life. Now, with a new perspective coming from losing my body and connecting with a larger reality, I could only see all the good stuff that ever happened to humans on Earth as having the exact same “value” as all the bad stuff that ever happened. All the joyful happy moments, all the deaths, every birthday celebration, every war, was all the same. Each grain of sand in the Sahara Desert was intimately connected to every speck of dirt on the bottom of my shoe. You might think gaining this kind of perspective was unnerving as it flat-lined much of our waking knowledge, but my emotional responses were buffered out. I felt a growing sensation of serenity in this awareness of our true place in reality. That oneness of existence being revealed to me in my NDE had always already been there my whole life, behind everything I knew. All was connected in one grand cosmic mass, and it has and always will be that way.
Sensing and understanding this unity perspective, I was shocked that my waking cognitive ability was still engaged. I hoped at least to retain enough memory of the experience to recall that I had become one with all simultaneously. Still, some how I knew I would not forget the profound implications of this awareness. Where could I go from here? My dissolution continued, eventually I was “feeling myself” as being all the individual subatomic particles in existence simultaneously. At every point in the universe, in every possible, conceivable direction absolute oneness was me; left, right, up, down, inside, out, big, small, forward and backward in time, and in every conceivable realm of infinity.
There’s a little more to my journey’s description. Having reached what could only be considered the very end of possible expansion into EVERYTHING, it felt a kind of steady-state of awareness coming over me. A profound sense of wholeness blanketed my awareness, yet I contained no need or desire for stimulation. To the best of my understanding, this was at least how I was able to interpret my state (over 30 years ago!). Yet, I never thought of it as a “bad thing” as I was filled with a kind of knowing that completely replaced the duality we are always subject to as Earth humans. There was no awareness of wet/dry, warm/cold, big/small, good/bad, strong/weak, malevolent/benevolent, etc. As this “final stage” of my journey was settling in to my consciousness, I began to slowly wake up.
Gradually, my eyes opened and I looked out ahead of me from my reclined position on the couch. I knew immediately, waking from that “dream” experience, I had unmistakably gone through what was called an NDE, but I was still ALIVE, awake, feeling good and gaining back my conscious self-awareness. Laying there quietly, reflecting on what had just happened, I could not say a word. Then, I began thinking about the experience I had just undergone. I remember I said aloud, like someone was in the room to hear it, “If that’s what death is like, why would anyone fear it?” I realized I had been living on one side of a wall and now I was finally able to see what was on the other side.
Getting up from the couch, I began to return to my “ordinary life” and conventional 3D activities. Oh well, I was only 28 then and have to forgive myself. It took me many months, almost a year for this NDE experience to sink in enough for me to begin transforming my life. Almost a year later, the results were manifesting.
By early 1991, I had lost 50 lbs., was working out regularly and in tremendous physical condition, quit my job as a nuclear engineer (THANK GOD), came out as a gay man, moved from Virginia, and began a new life. There’s a lot more details to my “after the NDE” transformational story, some of it REALLY amazing, but those were the quick highlights. Incidentally, today astrology clearly indicates the role my Saturn return played in this process of change in my late 20s. My soul connection had been tuned up by the NDE and the presence of a transiting Saturn. I simply could no longer do the things I had done before.
Our lives are way more than we’ve been taught. Your own personal experiences in life are always intimately linked to others. We are all the same underneath and connected. Learning from the NDEs of others can teach us significant lessons, expanding our understanding of reality and knowledge of who we really are. Certainly, an NDE is not in everyone’s life deck, but I encourage each of you to explore this subject and gain a better understanding of its implications. Astrology is also a valuable tool to apply in this exploration. Expand your reality by challenging all BS (Belief Systems)!
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